either-Xor questions | 2010-08-06 17:01
Should I suffer in silence, or speak up and drive people away?
Should I make others happy, or allow myself to be content?
Should your idea of me be of more worth, or should the truth be told?
These questions have the same basis, the same answer.
It can be the first part, in all of them, or the second half. Exclusively first or exclusively the second half, and the same half on all.
If none come to my aid it'll be the first half by habit and routine, since that is what is expected. Right? ◊
21 truths | 2010-07-08 15:04
I've promised a friend I would list 21 truths about myself.
01: I don't think I can come up with 21 revealing truths about myself ... without going so far out as to drive all but a few friends away.
02: I'm living on disability pay, and while I can live comfortably (by my standards) on my own, I'm currently living over my assets.
03: I know many if not all the tricks of the lying trade, and after having worked against it for years I'm brushing up on my skills in that area.
04: I'm a gamer, but not a player. If I'm interested in a girl, it's for long term. One night stands isn't my thing. Though, I don't have to be in a relationship with the person I'm indulging in carnal pleasures with.
05: I'm seriously annoyed over the fact that all gamer girls fall into one of two categories: "the taken" and "also looking for gamer-girls".
06: I have kinks that ... I haven't indulged in for months. Like 18 months plus.
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blah, mk 2 | 2010-07-05 20:33
There are, or will be, five persons who are/will be upset with me.
First for not coughing up the money she thinks I owe her.
Second for suspecting me of having revealed too many, too deep trade secrets while un-asked looking for allies in the corporate world.
Third for drinking tonight, and thus a bit hung-over tomorrow.
Fourth and fifth, the most precious of them all, for drinking alone tonight.
Each of the five would know who they are out of the collection, if they read this web log.
blah! | 2010-07-05 19:42
fuck
my post about my day, and drinking, got lost in the void.
too un-sober to care to re-write the whole shit.
Rest assured, I am in this moment not sober, and getting further away from that state, and for a reason ... or three ... or four, depending on how you count.
Slante!
heresy? | 2010-06-18 13:27
I wonder what the rules for Heresy is, and if I'm a heretic for writing such a blasphemous version of the lords prayer.
Oh well, it's for theologians to debate.
I'm posting it here for myself to be able to find and practice.
Fader Vår, Sommar, Höst och Vinter. Helgalet var ditt namn. Tillkomme mitt rike. Sked i vila, sås omkring himelen, sås dock på jorden. Vår adliga börd, giv oss idag, och förlåt oss våra skuldror, såsom dock vi förvåna dem oss skyldiga äro, och inled oss gärna i frestelse utan rälls eller räcke. Ty riket är vitt, och maken till härligheter är överallt Ramen. Oh, yes, it's in Swedish, so ... *grins*
war | 2010-06-01 08:24
According to international law, Sweden and Israel is now at war.
Yup, you read it right.
We are at war.
The Swedish military can now legally wage war against Israel.
In fact, they have had that right for some 23 hours now, and what the Swedish government have done so far is:
"Pretty please Israel, could you perhaps send back the civilians you kidnapped?"
That's it.
They've asked nicely to have the prisoners returned.
Israel committed an overt act of war when they boarded the leading vessel in the Ships to Gaza convoy on international water, and took the personnel as prisoners.
cats | 2010-05-20 15:39
I've become with cats.
Sounds strange?
Well the Orebro Katthem (a voluntary group of people who cares a lot about cats and takes care of as many homeless cats they can) was in dire need of extra housing.
So me and my GF decided to chip in.
From sometime later (ie, after four o'clock local) today we're getting two cats to alleviate the burden for the cat-shelter.
The cats are named Jorin and Malika and they arived at quarter past four, approximately.
And what a day this have turned out to be.
Started with oversleeping, then rush to pick up items from the previous shelter-home, then lunch, then buy food, kitty-litter and all other useful and needed things, and then back to my place to put things into place, clean and so on, all before four o'clock.
This on top of the issues started a week ago.
<begin irony>No, I didn't become at all stressed and short-tempered at all from it. My mind is perfectly calm and I don't have too much on my mind to relax. <end irony>
Once I relax enough to sleep tonight, I'll be sleeping like a log. Of this I am sure.◊
chain of events | 2010-05-18 13:10
[updated 13:30] This is, to my knowledge, the chain of events that may cause me to lose a friend.
Wednesday 12th:
* Niko loses a ship in EVE-Online. Ships worth is 225Milion+ isk. or over 30 hours of active mining for Niko.
* I offer to sell a ship of the same type to him, with no down payment. He refuses to buy anything on credit.
* I also inform him that I have some advice for him, but I'll only give it if he specifically asks for it.
Thursday 13th:
* I leave in the morning to spend the day with my gf and the dogs she helps take care of.
Friday 14th:
* No later than this morning Niko calls Keiju to bitch and whine to her, upset at HER for what I wrote in the EVEmail Wednesday evening.
* Returns home just to "bounce". Takes 5 minutes on-line EVE to update training queues and reply to an EVEmail from Niko. - At this point Niko was no longer angry at me, and interested in buying the ship.
Saturday 15th:
* Does not return home as planned, due to having too good a time. At least until
* an sms exchange with Keiju.
-- Sometime prior to the sms exchange the girl I spent time with had obtained Keijus cellphone number. How, where and when - no clue (but apparently my fault).
Sunday 16th:
* Return home late, tired. I don't do as Keiju ask, but rather postpones it to the monday morning.
Monday 17th:
* Email sent to Keiju.
Did I miss anything?
Almost.
During this whole time I was NEVER under ANY circumstance upset with Niko. IF Niko was upset with me personally, then he didn't let me know about it.
I got seriously upset and disappointed with Keiju and her reaction.
There are things I ... I wish I could say or write.
But I can't.
Don't ask me to explain, because all I'll do is lie and pretend and smooth things over.
It's the ONLY option for me.
I have no other choice than to live a life of lies and deceit.
Freya may be my goddess, but I'm given no choice but to live like a disciple of Loki, lest I abandon all hope of retaining any social network.
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världens avskum | 2010-05-17 10:12
Jag är tydligen världens avskum på grund av att jag inte har 110% koll på min mobil 25 timmar om dygnet, 8 dygn i veckan, 55 veckor om året.
Jag kan förlora en vän på grund av jag inte har sådan koll.
Ärligt, jag vet inte vad jag ska tro, tycka eller tänka om det.
Okej för att den vännen inte mår helt bra, men en så stark reaktion ...
Jag behöver samla tankarna och låta känslorna få bubbla klart.
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not happy | 2010-04-21 16:37
Im a bit miffed right now. The reason is that for some reason it seems impossible for me to renew my EVE-Online account.
Oh well.
I'll distract myself in some other way once I get home and is free to just be. To do what I want. To actually relax. Gods know when I last was really relaxed. Feels like it was ages ago, though it's probably just a couple of days back.
When I feel like this ... then it doesn't matter how long I've been in this mindset. Right now it feels like I've felt like this "forever", even though logic dictates otherwise.◊
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